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Chapter 1: Intro: Min Jin Lee Takes the Yale Stage
0:00I have been thinking about what your generation has experienced and is experiencing.
0:088 secondsa pandemic, deadly invasions and wars, mass school shootings,
0:1717 secondswildfires, climate change, inflation, the destruction of voting rights,
0:2525 secondsAI, clip economies, attention economies, the incitification
0:3333 secondsof tech platforms, rampant economic inequality,
0:4040 secondslack of affordable housing, the rise of neoliberalism and authoritarianism.
0:5252 secondsAnd then there's ICE.
0:5757 secondsPresident McInness, trustees of the Yale Corporation, Dean Lewis, Provost Strobble, heads and deans of the
1:061 minute, 6 secondsresidential colleges, Professor Allison Coleman, class day committee members Isa, Maya, Sarah, and Kevin.
1:251 minute, 25 secondsfaculty, administration, and staff.
1:271 minute, 27 secondsThank you, class of 2026 for your gracious invitation.
1:331 minute, 33 secondsAnd class of 2026, congratulations.
1:431 minute, 43 secondsI can take it for you. Very good.
1:501 minute, 50 secondsLet us acknowledge together the sacrifice, the dedication and love of your parents, family members, guardians, and friends.
2:032 minutes, 3 secondsWe hold in our hearts every person who could not be here today because of work,
2:122 minutes, 12 secondsillness, financial circumstances, or military service.
2:172 minutes, 17 secondsIn the past decade,
2:292 minutes, 29 secondsI have lost two of my It started fast today.
2:472 minutes, 47 secondsI lost two of my brilliant college roommates before they turned 50.
2:542 minutes, 54 secondsYanuan Joe, Davenport, class of 1990.
3:043 minutes, 4 secondsKoska Kubsella, Trumbull 1990.
3:133 minutes, 13 secondsThis past December, we lost the environmental journalist Tatiana Schllober Trumbull, class of 12,
3:243 minutes, 24 secondswho served as the editor and chief of the Yale Herald.
3:323 minutes, 32 secondsamong us gathered today.
3:353 minutes, 35 secondsWe have lost too many too soon.
3:413 minutes, 41 secondsHowever, may their lives and love shine through these beautiful graduates.
3:513 minutes, 51 secondson class day of 1990.
3:543 minutes, 54 secondsI was sitting where you're seated and I was set to go to law school at Georgetown.
4:034 minutes, 3 secondsI don't know how I got in. No, truly.
4:084 minutes, 8 secondsIn preparation for this speech, I revisited my mediocre transcript.
4:154 minutes, 15 secondsI had far more B's than A's.
4:194 minutes, 19 secondsAs evidence, I will share that I got a C in sculpture
4:364 minutes, 36 secondsand a C plus in modern Chinese history.
4:434 minutes, 43 secondsSome of you will graduate suma cumlaude magna [ __ ] laad or [ __ ] laad.
4:524 minutes, 52 secondsMy friend Neil and I used to joke that we graduated. Thank you lad.
5:155 minutes, 15 secondsI feel seen. Okay.
5:215 minutes, 21 secondsIn your seat, I was not thinking about the brightness of my future, but rather my limits.
5:315 minutes, 31 secondsIt had not been my plan to go to law school. I was a history major and I had wanted
5:405 minutes, 40 secondsI had wanted to become a history professor but I didn't have the grades or the faculty support to get a PhD.
5:505 minutes, 50 secondsAnd also at Yale I learned that I had a very serious liver disease.
5:565 minutes, 56 secondsAnd on my class day I felt disillusioned with my political ideals.
6:046 minutes, 4 secondsbetrayed by my own body, alienated from some of my classmates, and I felt ready to leave campus.
6:156 minutes, 15 secondsAbove all, I wondered if I had wasted my four valuable years at Yale.
6:266 minutes, 26 secondsI went to law school. I got a job as a lawyer at a firm in Manhattan.
6:326 minutes, 32 secondsAnd after working for only two years, I quit my highpaying job to write fiction.
6:506 minutes, 50 secondsI was 26 years old. I had no idea how to write a novel. So it turned out that I had gone into the wrong profession.
7:027 minutes, 2 secondsSo obviously I had chosen the wrong major. So I would have to start at square one.
7:107 minutes, 10 secondsAgain I asked myself had I squandered another five years of my life.
7:207 minutes, 20 secondsAnd from that moment on, it took me another 12 years to publish my debut
7:277 minutes, 27 secondsnovel, Free Food for Millionaires. And I was 38 years old. And when I was sitting in your chair, that was like a hundred.
7:427 minutes, 42 secondsMy second novel, Pachenko, came out when I was 48. That's like 110.
7:507 minutes, 50 secondsSo that's another decade.
7:537 minutes, 53 secondsHowever, I had gotten the study the whole idea to study the Koreans in Japan when I was in college. So off and on.
8:018 minutes, 1 secondI've been working on that book for almost 30 years.
8:078 minutes, 7 secondsMy third novel, American Hogwan, will come out in the fall when I will turn 58.
8:228 minutes, 22 secondsI look good, right?
8:408 minutes, 40 secondsI love the class of 2026.
8:488 minutes, 48 secondsAnd when young writers when young writers ask me how should I become a novelist
8:568 minutes, 56 secondsout of due consideration for their precious youth my first thought is shouldn't they be
9:039 minutes, 3 secondsasking somebody else someone who is far more efficient and productive
9:119 minutes, 11 secondsso for most of my life, I have felt there was something really wrong with me.
9:189 minutes, 18 secondsI was too slow. I was slow to learn how to talk. I was slow to learn how to make friends. I was a slow learner.
9:289 minutes, 28 secondsI even take twice as long to eat my meals than most people.
9:369 minutes, 36 secondsThree decades, three novels. And I'm not a fast writer. And as a child, my father
9:439 minutes, 43 secondshad named me turtle because of my pace.
9:509 minutes, 50 secondsAt Yale, I did not know how to find mentors.
9:569 minutes, 56 secondsI was not tapped by any societies or clubs.
10:0110 minutes, 1 secondI said and wrote things which upset important people.
10:0810 minutes, 8 secondsAnd I was
10:1910 minutes, 19 secondsAnd I was so dumb or naive that I didn't know who was important in the world.
10:2810 minutes, 28 secondsAnd it turned out that all the important people knew each other.
Chapter 2: AI, ICE & America's Biggest Challenges
10:3510 minutes, 35 secondsSo if you made trouble, and I did, everyone important
10:4210 minutes, 42 secondsor who aspired to be important avoided you.
10:4810 minutes, 48 secondsSo it can be reasonably argued that I did not use my time well in college and that I had missed my opportunities.
10:5910 minutes, 59 secondsand class of 2026.
11:0211 minutes, 2 secondsSince last May, when I received the invitation from President McInness,
11:0911 minutes, 9 secondsI have been thinking about you every single day.
11:1511 minutes, 15 secondsI have been thinking about what your generation has experienced and is experiencing.
11:2411 minutes, 24 secondsa pandemic, deadly invasions and wars, mass school shootings,
11:3311 minutes, 33 secondswildfires, climate change, inflation, the destruction of voting rights,
11:4011 minutes, 40 secondsAI, clip economies, attention economies, the incitification
11:4811 minutes, 48 secondsof tech platforms, rampant economic inequality,
11:5511 minutes, 55 secondslack of affordable housing, the rise of neoliberalism and authoritarianism.
12:0712 minutes, 7 secondsAnd then there's ICE
12:1712 minutes, 17 secondsand Doge, the loss of reproductive rights,
12:2812 minutes, 28 secondshealthc care inequality, the spectre of unemployment and undermployment.
12:3812 minutes, 38 secondsgovernment corruption, the drastic cuts to scientific research,
12:4612 minutes, 46 secondsthe death of local news, and the loss of legacy media.
12:5212 minutes, 52 secondsThe loss of cherished ideals and hard one constitutional liberties for all
12:5912 minutes, 59 secondspeople, but especially for members of historically oppressed communities. and
13:0513 minutes, 5 secondsthe rise of distrust in each other as we approach our national semi-kin
13:1313 minutes, 13 secondscentennial and now the hanto virus.
13:2013 minutes, 20 secondsGood [ __ ] grief.
13:3113 minutes, 31 secondsYou are the so-called anxious generation, a label I have been considering.
13:4113 minutes, 41 secondsTo me, you are rightfully agrieved. You have been forced to be alert.
13:5013 minutes, 50 secondsNo, you have been forced to be hyper vigilant.
13:5413 minutes, 54 secondsAnd you deserve credit for being the adaptive generation.
Chapter 3: Choose The Important Over The Urgent
14:0814 minutes, 8 secondsThe more we're made aware, the more we may be shaken.
14:1414 minutes, 14 secondsBut in our most difficult trials, you and I cannot afford to panic.
14:2514 minutes, 25 secondsRather, we need to make sober decisions by being steady and clearsighted.
14:3414 minutes, 34 secondsBut how?
14:3714 minutes, 37 secondsOften I'm asked, what advice do I have for young people? And I share this
14:4414 minutes, 44 secondsprecept which has carried me through every difficult question.
14:5214 minutes, 52 secondsChoose the important over the urgent.
14:5814 minutes, 58 secondsChoose the important over the urgent.
15:0315 minutes, 3 secondsA text message or a DM may seem urgent, but rarely is it important.
15:1215 minutes, 12 secondsAny addictive impulse feels urgent, but you know it isn't important. And too often it will lead to our demise.
15:2415 minutes, 24 secondsSo fine, you say. So we know when something isn't urgent, but then how do you know it's important?
15:3415 minutes, 34 secondsAnd for me, I started to see what is important when I began to understand the concept of time.
15:4615 minutes, 46 secondsThe ancient Greeks, that's right, Greeks.
15:5015 minutes, 50 secondsThe ancient Greeks have two words for time.
15:5515 minutes, 55 secondsKronos and Chyros.
16:0016 minutesWith these two words, I wanted to create a set of task glasses,
16:0616 minutes, 6 secondsa pair of time bif focals, so you can have two perspectives both near and far.
16:1616 minutes, 16 secondsI want to take a moment to note that Benjamin Franklin,
16:3916 minutes, 39 secondsthe namesake of our young residential college.
16:4916 minutes, 49 secondswho who received an honorary master's degree
16:5716 minutes, 57 secondsin Yale in 1753 is credited for having invented the bifocals.
17:0817 minutes, 8 secondsI wanted to drop some knowledge for Benjamin Franklin.
17:1817 minutes, 18 secondsIn our era when rapid change is our constant, I want you to have these time bif focals
17:2717 minutes, 27 secondsfor you to either wear around your neck like a middle-aged writer or to carry in
17:3317 minutes, 33 secondsyour breast pocket like a secret tool so that whenever you face an unfamiliar situation
17:4217 minutes, 42 secondsor experience something you may not understand, you can put them on as the author and historian of your life.
17:5517 minutes, 55 secondsThe first ancient Greek word Kronos is a word for time and that could be
18:0218 minutes, 2 secondsmeasured like clock time. If I said 20 minutes isn't enough time for lunch, that time would be Kronos.
18:1618 minutes, 16 secondsKronos is the spine of storytelling.
18:2018 minutes, 20 secondsWhen a story starts, the clock starts. As the author of your life, you know that Kronos is ticking.
18:3218 minutes, 32 secondsThe second ancient Greek word for time is chyros which means the opportune time,
18:4118 minutes, 41 secondsa strategic opening or in theology a divinely appointed season.
18:5118 minutes, 51 secondsSo when you see the romantic partner of your life, of your dreams,
18:5818 minutes, 58 secondsand you sense the right time to approach them, we're talking about chyros.
19:0619 minutes, 6 secondsThe plural of chyros is chairoy. Each life is filled with cyroy.
19:1619 minutes, 16 secondsKronos quantitative that's measurable time. Chyros qualitative opportune time.
19:2619 minutes, 26 secondsClass of 2026, I imagine that each of you is familiar with the pressure of Kronos.
19:3519 minutes, 35 secondsNearly all high achievers are Kronos people.
19:4119 minutes, 41 secondsWill I finish graduate school in 6 years? before I turn 30, will I have enough money in the bank? When will I get a partner? Will I give birth to a
19:4919 minutes, 49 secondschild before 40? Perhaps you have a five-year plan or a 10-year plan.
19:5519 minutes, 55 secondsI can imagine that each of you is made hopeful and anxious by these Kronos related
20:0520 minutes, 5 secondswishes because often there are benchmarks with the attendant deadlines.
20:1220 minutes, 12 secondsThe compound word deadline even reminds us deadline with mortality.
20:2020 minutes, 20 secondsWe can feel the movement of the clock.
20:2420 minutes, 24 secondsIn Homer's The Odyssey, I think we have a classicist here.
20:3320 minutes, 33 secondsChyros occurs when the hero Odysius takes any decisive action.
20:4020 minutes, 40 secondsWhen he tricks a monster, he outwits the sirens and finds his way home to his family.
20:4920 minutes, 49 secondsIn a theological context, Kyros tells you what matters and when.
20:5820 minutes, 58 secondsAnd some of you may be familiar with the verses from Ecclesiastes.
21:0321 minutes, 3 secondsThere is a time for everything and a season for every activity under the heavens.
21:1321 minutes, 13 secondsA time to be born, a time to die, a time to plant, and a time to uproot.
21:2321 minutes, 23 secondsThat time in time to uproot is chyros.
21:3021 minutes, 30 secondsGraduating from college and going to the next stage of your life is Chyros.
21:3721 minutes, 37 secondsYou and I are here in Chyros.
Chapter 4: Personal Journey & Immigrant Experience
21:4221 minutes, 42 secondsAnd as an author, it's my job to have lots of Cairo. The main character, and
21:5121 minutes, 51 secondsI'm feeling a lot of main character energy here, must have big wishes. overcome
21:5921 minutes, 59 secondschallenging obstacles and be transformed by Cairoy.
22:0622 minutes, 6 secondsWhen you're the author, you have to know ahead of the reader what those essential
22:1222 minutes, 12 secondstransformative moments should be so the reader keeps turning the pages.
22:2022 minutes, 20 secondsHowever, in real life, when you're the main character, not always obvious what's critical.
22:2922 minutes, 29 secondsSo, when I put on my dual perspective time glasses to review my college years,
22:3922 minutes, 39 secondswhat seemed deeply painful or even insignificant were actually cyroy.
22:5022 minutes, 50 seconds50 years ago in 1976, I immigrated to this country with my family when I was seven.
23:0423 minutes, 4 secondsThank you. It was the year of the bicesentennial.
23:0923 minutes, 9 secondsThen 10 years later, in the fall of 1986, I entered old campus for my first day at Yale.
23:2023 minutes, 20 secondsI was 17 because I was born in November and young for Scorpio's in the house.
23:3223 minutes, 32 secondsI was born in November and I was really young for my class.
23:3623 minutes, 36 secondsI wore large horn rim glasses that slid down my nose. I wore no makeup and my
23:4523 minutes, 45 secondshair was bobbed short, cut by my mother at home in the kitchen near the sink
23:5323 minutes, 53 secondswith a large, thin towel draped over my shoulders. I did not have much of a wardrobe.
24:0224 minutes, 2 secondsI was so proud to own one pink and white rugby shirt from Land's End, which I thought would be preppy enough for Yale.
24:1324 minutes, 13 secondsLater, I got a job as a sales clerk in a downtown
24:2024 minutes, 20 secondsNew Haven at Ann Taylor to improve my clothing options and to fit in.
24:2824 minutes, 28 secondsMy mother and father worked in Manhattan's Korea town in a tiny wholesale jewelry store, maybe 200
24:3724 minutes, 37 secondssquare feet, and they sold inexpensive costume jewelry to small shop owners in
24:4524 minutes, 45 secondsthe New York area and to street peddlers who sold their wares on card tables at a markup near the subway stations.
24:5624 minutes, 56 secondsGrowing up and during college breaks, my sisters and I worked at our parents' store.
25:0425 minutes, 4 secondsYale was the school of my dreams.
25:0825 minutes, 8 secondsI wanted to go to Yale because in high school, my favorite writer was Sinclair Lewis.
25:1725 minutes, 17 secondsThat's one person. That's good.
25:2025 minutes, 20 secondsHe is remembered, if remembered at all, for his social novels, Main Street, Babbot, Aerosmith, Dodsworth, and It Can't Happen Here.
25:3225 minutes, 32 secondsBack then, there was no internet or Wikipedia. But in the back flap of my
25:3825 minutes, 38 secondslibrary books, Lewis's biography mentioned this college. And I wondered
25:4825 minutes, 48 secondswhat he had learned at this school to write such important
25:5525 minutes, 55 secondsnovels about social history and politics.
26:0126 minutes, 1 secondI applied early, got deferred.
26:0626 minutes, 6 secondsand then eventually was accepted through regular admissions. In April 1986,
26:1426 minutes, 14 secondsI graduated from the Bronx High School of Science, the greatest high school in the world,
26:2226 minutes, 22 secondsand became a member of the class of 1990, and was assigned to Trumbull College,
26:3426 minutes, 34 secondsthe greatest residential college. A gal
26:4326 minutes, 43 secondsWhen I arrived on campus, I sort of expected that Sinclair Lewis would be here. He was not. He had graduated in 1908.
26:5626 minutes, 56 secondsOn my first day at Yale, my father took time off from work and my mother stayed
27:0327 minutes, 3 secondsbehind to watch the store. They worked six days a week and they could not close to shop because their rent was high and
27:1227 minutes, 12 secondstheir customers who had limited resources and replenish their stock daily needed them to remain open.
27:2327 minutes, 23 secondsI wonder how many of you might have had family members or friends who could not
27:2927 minutes, 29 secondscome today because they're back home tending to their stores or restaurants.
27:3627 minutes, 36 secondsor taking care of a family member.
27:3927 minutes, 39 secondsMy father drove me to New Haven, helped me unload the car to my room in Jery Hall,
27:5127 minutes, 51 secondsthen went right back to work.
27:5427 minutes, 54 secondsAnd when I graduated in 1990, I did not ask my parents to attend class
28:0228 minutes, 2 secondsday because I didn't want to bother them with driving at night or having to stay at a hotel.
28:1128 minutes, 11 secondsIt seemed like too much to ask my parents to use up two days for one graduation.
28:2028 minutes, 20 secondsThey attended commencement, but not class day.
28:2528 minutes, 25 secondsHowever, my parents are here this afternoon.
28:4228 minutes, 42 secondsOn your class day, it may take 36 years
28:5428 minutes, 54 secondsKronos. But it all works out. Chyros.
29:0029 minutesMy parents did not know what I did at school. Nothing. They were not involved in my classes or my major. They just trusted that I would figure it out.
29:1229 minutes, 12 secondsAnd in my sophomore year, I decided to major in history.
29:1929 minutes, 19 secondsIn the summer, in the summer between my first and second year at Yale, I went to Korea to
29:2829 minutes, 28 secondsstudy the Korean language at Jans University, my mother's alma mater.
29:3429 minutes, 34 secondsWhen I returned to Yale, I wanted to learn more about Korea.
29:4029 minutes, 40 secondsI took the only class that I could, which was a college seminar at Davenport
29:4629 minutes, 46 secondstaught by Duck
29:5929 minutes, 59 secondstaught by Dr. Hung Chun Co, who founded the East Rock Institute.
30:0830 minutes, 8 secondsShe's 96 years old and she's here today.
30:2330 minutes, 23 secondsIt was the only class. There was nothing else. Yell was supposedly worldrenowned
30:2930 minutes, 29 secondsfor its East Asian studies. But in 1988, I could not find any department course
30:3830 minutes, 38 secondson Korean history, language, religion or literature. Nothing.
30:4630 minutes, 46 secondsHow could any history or political science major understand the Cold War without knowing the history of Korea?
Chapter 5: Fighting for Korean Studies at Yale
30:5830 minutes, 58 secondsTwo American men, Dean Rusk and Charles Bonsteel, both only 36 years old.
31:0831 minutes, 8 secondsThey had never been to Korea, but they had proposed the division of the peninsula at the 38th parallel in August of 1945.
31:2031 minutes, 20 secondsOver 35,000 American soldiers died in the Korean War.
31:2731 minutes, 27 secondsThe Division of Korea is also American history.
31:4231 minutes, 42 secondsI wanted a better education. So I decided to do something.
31:4831 minutes, 48 secondsChyros Dr. Co said that for years Yale students had been trying to get at least the Korean language off the ground.
32:0032 minutesShe introduced me to a senior Harry Nom Berkeley class of 88.
32:1732 minutes, 17 secondsHarry would be so proud.
32:2032 minutes, 20 secondsSo, in my sophomore year, I decided to start up the Korea Studies Task Force.
32:2732 minutes, 27 secondsHarry kindly attended meetings and served as co-chair of this task force
32:3432 minutes, 34 secondsbefore graduating in a few months. I wrote several letters. I drafted a formal letter to the chair of the East
32:4232 minutes, 42 secondsAsian Studies Department asking for classes relating to Korea studies. Then
32:4932 minutes, 49 secondsI asked a friend at the Yale Divinity School to translate the letter into Korean.
32:5732 minutes, 57 secondsI went to Tao and I photocopied the letters. I bought stamps for 200
33:0433 minutes, 4 secondsenvelopes with my own money. Then I called a meeting and gathered students
33:1133 minutes, 11 secondsand leaders from different student organizations who would support Korea studies. And at the meeting I asked 200
33:2033 minutes, 20 secondsstudents to send the letters to their parents and then to ask their parents to send
33:2933 minutes, 29 secondsthe letters to the college administration and they did.
33:3633 minutes, 36 secondsYale parents are very special.
33:4633 minutes, 46 secondsThings started to change.
33:4933 minutes, 49 secondsParents sent those letters to then President Beno Schmidt and some added
33:5633 minutes, 56 secondsfierce arguments of their own. I know because I read dozens of them when I visited the archives two months ago.
34:0634 minutes, 6 secondshere. I want to thank Mike Lstein and Jeannie Lori, the university archavists
34:1334 minutes, 13 secondsfor for finding boxes of these letters.
34:2334 minutes, 23 secondsHistory is our collective memory, but it is interpretation based on evidence.
34:3134 minutes, 31 secondsYale had been saving these primary documents. So, class of 2026, keep your receipts.
34:4334 minutes, 43 secondsIn the fall of my junior year,
34:5034 minutes, 50 secondsstudents and parents sent those letters and the school announced that the Korean language would be taught the following year in the fall of 1990.
35:0235 minutes, 2 secondsA generous parent had pledged $100,000 to seed a three-year pilot program for the Korean language.
35:1435 minutes, 14 secondsHarry Nam already graduated, so he couldn't benefit from the language classes and neither would I because I
35:2335 minutes, 23 secondsthe classes would start the year I graduated.
35:2835 minutes, 28 secondsThe Korean language classes started in Yale in the fall of 1990.
35:3535 minutes, 35 secondsThey have been taught continuously for 36 years.
35:4835 minutes, 48 secondsOut of the 55 languages that are taught at Yale, Korean language is the fifth largest language program by enrollment.
36:0136 minutes, 1 secondand the second most popular Asian language at Yale after Chinese.
36:1036 minutes, 10 secondsThe Korea Studies Task Force had asked for history classes as well.
36:1636 minutes, 16 secondsAnd in my junior year, I learned that Yale's first Korean history class would be taught in the spring. I signed up right away.
36:2836 minutes, 28 secondsAnd then I got sick.
36:3136 minutes, 31 secondsIn high school, I had donated blood and the Red Cross had written me a letter
36:3936 minutes, 39 secondssaying that I was a chronic hepatitis B carrier, so I should never give blood.
36:4736 minutes, 47 secondsIn high school, I was asymptomatic, so I didn't think much of it. But during the winter of my junior year, it turned out that I was infected.
37:0037 minutesGradually, I recovered from the symptoms, but the doctor at Yale New Haven Hospital told me that it was more
Chapter 6: Confronting Bias in the Classroom
37:0837 minutes, 8 secondsthan likely that I would get liver cancer in my 20s or early 30s.
37:1637 minutes, 16 secondsI dropped two classes so I could stay in school, but I kept Korean history.
37:2437 minutes, 24 secondsI did not know how much time I had. Kronos.
37:3037 minutes, 30 secondsIn the spring of 1989, a Yale history professor, a renowned authority in Japanese
37:3937 minutes, 39 secondshistory, taught the Korean history class.
37:4437 minutes, 44 seconds60 students enrolled and I was overjoyed to take the class
37:5137 minutes, 51 secondswhich I fought to have. I attended every class. I asked questions and I studied hard.
38:0038 minutesWhen I took the midterm exam, the professor failed me.
38:0638 minutes, 6 secondsOn the blue book, at the end of the handwritten essay test, the grade was F.
38:1438 minutes, 14 secondsand he wrote the words, "Ah me, what's to say?" That was the extent of his comments.
38:2538 minutes, 25 secondsNo rubric, no guidance, and no respect.
38:3138 minutes, 31 secondsChyros, what would I do?
38:3738 minutes, 37 secondsAfter the midterm exams were handed out, several students were visibly upset.
38:4338 minutes, 43 secondsI learned that many of the students who had failed or gotten poor marks were of Korean descent.
38:5338 minutes, 53 secondsI raised my hand in front of the whole class and I asked the professor for a
39:0039 minutesgender and ethnic breakdown of the grading.
39:1039 minutes, 10 secondsChyros.
39:1239 minutes, 12 secondsAt the outset of the next class meeting, the professor wrote out the grading data on the chalkboard
39:2039 minutes, 20 secondsfocusing on gender and who was ethnically Korean, which was over half the class.
39:2839 minutes, 28 seconds15 students of Korean descent or almost half of all the Koreans received marks
39:3639 minutes, 36 secondsof C or below. and he failed five ethnically Korean students.
39:4339 minutes, 43 secondsAfter he gave out the grades, he speculated that the reason why so many
39:4939 minutes, 49 secondsAsians had gotten C's, D's, or failed was because most Asians were math and
39:5839 minutes, 58 secondsscience majors who do not know how to write a history midterm.
40:0740 minutes, 7 secondsI was a history major, [ __ ]
40:2240 minutes, 22 secondsChyros. I wrote a letter to the Yale Herald.
40:2940 minutes, 29 secondsThen the Yell Observer broke down the data and reported that the professor did not know what our majors were. And it
40:3840 minutes, 38 secondswas indeed incorrect to assume that just because you're Asian, that you were in fact a math or science major.
40:4940 minutes, 49 secondsThe Yell Observer reported that it was incorrect to assume that math or science
40:5540 minutes, 55 secondsmajors did not know how to write history midterms or that a person in an Asian
41:0241 minutes, 2 secondsbody should naturally know the history of her ancestors.
41:1041 minutes, 10 secondsAfter I wrote that letter to the Yale Herald, a fellow KoreanAmerican student
41:1741 minutes, 17 secondswrote a letter defending the professor and called me paranoid.
41:2641 minutes, 26 secondsAnother student wrote that I was a politically correct terrorist.
41:3341 minutes, 33 secondsI felt so stupid for having started the Korean studies task force
41:4041 minutes, 40 secondsand I was ashamed at having campaigned for a Korean history class.
41:4741 minutes, 47 secondsI had publicly disagreed with a powerful professor in the department of my major
41:5641 minutes, 56 secondswhich was not a strategically good decision.
42:0142 minutes, 1 secondAnd not soon after, I received a death threat in the mail, which I brought to the campus police because I was frightened.
42:1442 minutes, 14 secondsHowever, from unexpected corners, I received profound care.
42:2242 minutes, 22 secondsI'm a Presbyterian, the granddaughter of a minister. But somehow I was connected to Rabbi James
42:3242 minutes, 32 secondsPondet, a university chaplain who wrote me an encouraging letter when he learned of the death threat.
42:4242 minutes, 42 secondsHe wrote, "Your capacity to express outrage makes you a valuable citizen.
42:5242 minutes, 52 secondsAlso, my dear friend Judy Solano, who worked as the grill cook at Trumbull
43:0043 minutesCollege Kitchen, invited me to her home and she cooked chicken casserole for me.
43:1043 minutes, 10 secondsJudy's here today.
43:1443 minutes, 14 secondsTheir kindness gave me the courage to remain enrolled in the class.
43:2643 minutes, 26 secondsThree of the six students who failed the midterm dropped the course. I stayed and received a B minus for my final grade in Korean history.
43:3743 minutes, 37 secondsThat same semester, the second semester of my junior year, the head of Trumbull College, who was also the university
43:4643 minutes, 46 secondschaplain, Harry Adams, invited me to attend what was then called a master's tea.
43:5543 minutes, 55 secondsThe college tea featured a white American missionary who served the poor Koreans in Japan.
44:0444 minutes, 4 secondsHe told a story about a 13-year-old boy, ethnically Korean child, who was born in
44:1144 minutes, 11 secondsJapan, after his middle school graduation.
44:1744 minutes, 17 secondsThe child went to the roof of his building and he jumped to his death.
44:2444 minutes, 24 secondsHis parents were devastated.
44:2844 minutes, 28 secondsThey did not know why he had committed suicide.
44:3344 minutes, 33 secondsSo they went through his things and discovered his middle school yearbook.
44:4044 minutes, 40 secondsAnd in this yearbook, his classmates had written, "Go back to where you belong.
44:5044 minutes, 50 secondsI hate you. You smell like kimchi." and his fellow classmates,
44:5744 minutes, 57 secondsother middle school children, had written the words, "Die, die, die." I would never forget the story.
45:1145 minutes, 11 secondsBefore that college te I had known nothing about the Koreans in Japan and
45:1845 minutes, 18 secondshow they struggled to survive in a colonial nation that had little use for them after the nation was defeated.
45:2945 minutes, 29 secondsThere were no classes about Koreans in Japan. But I resolved to learn more about it.
Chapter 7: How One Yale Moment Inspired Pachinko
45:3645 minutes, 36 secondsI resolved to do something about it.
45:4045 minutes, 40 secondsAnd my time at Yale had given me the valuable tools to teach myself the
45:4845 minutes, 48 secondsthings I needed to know because of that college tea.
45:5345 minutes, 53 secondsBecause of that college tea, one hour of four years,
46:0046 minutesI have been privileged to spend decades of my life trying to understand
46:0846 minutes, 8 secondsthe political nature of dehumanization.
46:1346 minutes, 13 secondsThe power of resistance, the beauty of human resilience, and the much needed grace of strangers.
46:2546 minutes, 25 secondsI wrote Pachenko because I went to a college tea.
46:3146 minutes, 31 secondsAt the end of my junior year, I submitted an essay I had written in a non-fiction seminar to the English department for prize consideration.
46:4346 minutes, 43 secondsThe class was taught by the incredible writing professor Fred Strey.
46:5046 minutes, 50 secondsAnd back then you had to submit your work without your name on it. And the professors from the English department
46:5946 minutes, 59 secondsjudged it. And at the end of May of 1989, I received a certificate in the mail. On blind submission, I had won the Henry P.
47:1347 minutes, 13 secondsWright prize for non-fiction for the best described article upon a
47:2047 minutes, 20 secondsprescribed subject, and it came with a check for $165, which was the first time I was ever paid for my writing.
47:3147 minutes, 31 secondsIn the fall of my senior year, I was lucky, so lucky to get into a hot
47:3847 minutes, 38 secondsAmerican seminar for history with another famous historian.
47:4547 minutes, 45 secondsFor my first paper, I wrote on Jane Adams's Hull House. I admired Jane Adams
47:5347 minutes, 53 secondsbecause she had helped poor European immigrants and led major social reforms in Chicago.
48:0348 minutes, 3 secondsThe professor gave me a C and when I went to see him during office hours, he said that I needed to get
48:1348 minutes, 13 secondsremedial help for my writing because English was my second language.
48:2248 minutes, 22 secondsThis was the second professor in my department who thought I was a foreigner
48:3048 minutes, 30 secondswho could not do well in the subject that I loved because I didn't know how to write or argue in English.
48:4348 minutes, 43 secondsHowever, the English department had just given me a prize for non-fiction.
Chapter 8: The Remark That Brought the Crowd to Its Feet
48:5548 minutes, 55 secondsan award judged by Yale professors with PhDs in English
49:0249 minutes, 2 secondswho did not know the identity of the writer.
49:0749 minutes, 7 secondsI was 20 years old and a doctor at Yale New Haven Hospital had already told me that I might die of liver cancer before turning 30.
49:2149 minutes, 21 secondsSo I waited until the professor finished speaking and I made a chyros decision.
49:3349 minutes, 33 secondsInformed by my limited Kronos, I knew I would not write another letter to the school newspaper.
49:4349 minutes, 43 secondsI faced that historian and I said, "Professor, it's not that I don't know how to write.
49:5449 minutes, 54 secondsIt's that you don't know how to read.
50:0350 minutes, 3 secondsI dropped that class.
50:0650 minutes, 6 secondsI completed the requirements of my major, but I decided not to apply to graduate school in history.
50:1550 minutes, 15 secondsI took more literature classes and college writing seminars.
50:2050 minutes, 20 secondsAnd in the second semester of my senior year, I submitted a short story again on blind submission for prize consideration to the English department.
50:3250 minutes, 32 secondsThis time, a work of fiction.
50:3650 minutes, 36 secondsOn commencement day, the day after class day, my fellow Trumbullians and I returned to Trumbull Courtyard.
50:4550 minutes, 45 secondsAnd when the awards were announced, I had won the V prize for fiction.
50:5250 minutes, 52 secondsAnother check for over $100.
50:5650 minutes, 56 secondsProfessors that I admired in the subject that I loved in the
51:0351 minutes, 3 secondsdepartment of my major told me that I was a middling student at
51:1051 minutes, 10 secondsbest and that I couldn't know how to write well.
51:1751 minutes, 17 secondsand professors who did not know me in the English department gave me prizes in non-fiction and fiction.
51:2751 minutes, 27 secondsClass of 2026, I want you to know this.
51:3551 minutes, 35 secondsI am grateful for all of it.
51:3951 minutes, 39 secondsthe unkindness, the misunderstandings as well as the encouragements,
51:4751 minutes, 47 secondsthe unexpected gracious recognition and the extraordinary tools of our Yale
51:5651 minutes, 56 secondseducation because all of it, all of it, the gaslighting,
52:0352 minutes, 3 secondsthe generosity, and the development of Your innate intellectual curiosity
Chapter 9: Life-Threatening Illness & A Second Chance
52:1252 minutes, 12 secondsprepared me for my life after graduation.
52:1852 minutes, 18 secondsRight after college, I went to law school. And right after law school, I married my husband Chris when I was 24.
52:2952 minutes, 29 secondsKronos.
52:3152 minutes, 31 secondsI met Chris when I went to a party with my friend Richard Reed. Timothy Dwight,
52:3852 minutes, 38 secondsclass of 90, Chyros.
52:4452 minutes, 44 secondsI practiced law for less than two years and I quit my job to write fiction.
52:5352 minutes, 53 secondsKnowing that my life would be severely curtailed, I decided that I would value my chyros.
53:0153 minutes, 1 secondMy husband and I had our son Sam when I was 29.
53:0753 minutes, 7 secondsWhen Sam was three years old, I developed liver cerosis,
53:1453 minutes, 14 secondsa significant risk factor for liver cancer.
53:1853 minutes, 18 secondsI was 32 years old. I never had a drop of alcohol.
Chapter 10: Closing Message of Resilience & Purpose
53:2553 minutes, 25 secondsThe Yale New Haven doctor, his prognosis came true like clockwork.
53:3353 minutes, 33 secondsChyros hit the fan.
53:3653 minutes, 36 secondsMy gastroentererologist in New York put me on an experimental trial of
53:4253 minutes, 42 secondsinterferon B. And for several months, I gave myself shots.
53:4953 minutes, 49 secondsAnd in that season of my life, I lost my hair.
53:5453 minutes, 54 secondsThe blood vessels in my face would break every time I sneezed or bent down to pick up something from the floor.
54:0354 minutes, 3 secondsI vomited and had diarrhea so badly that I could not leave the house.
54:0954 minutes, 9 secondsHowever, the drugs worked and I'm fully cured.
54:2454 minutes, 24 secondsMy doctor said it was a miracle. Chyros means opportune time.
54:3254 minutes, 32 secondsAnd you could interpret this to mean that like Homer's Odysius, you must always be decisive, always canny to figure out how to get home.
54:4554 minutes, 45 secondsI didn't live that way. If anything, I've learned that Cyros happened in spite of me,
54:5454 minutes, 54 secondsnot because of me. My part was to do what ordinary people can be expected to do.
55:0455 minutes, 4 secondsto address the important needs, to keep learning when you don't know things, to keep doing your share of the
55:1355 minutes, 13 secondswork, and to keep showing up.
55:1755 minutes, 17 secondsAn author may choose the Chyros moments for her characters, but not always for herself.
55:2655 minutes, 26 secondsA historian can look back and spot them to find meaning.
55:3255 minutes, 32 secondsFinally, I want to share the most surprising things that I have learned about time.
55:4255 minutes, 42 secondsTime is not your enemy.
55:4755 minutes, 47 secondsTime is your friend. Any dream that
55:5455 minutes, 54 secondsturns real will become complex and uncertain.
56:0456 minutes, 4 secondsAnd that is when you need to stare hard at it and struggle honestly.
56:1456 minutes, 14 secondsNothing nothing was wasted about your time here if you let the brightest
56:2356 minutes, 23 secondsand the darkest moments teach you to struggle better with truth.
56:3156 minutes, 31 secondsTime is our teacher and you class of 2026
56:3956 minutes, 39 secondswill not be shaken because you are well equipped for what lies ahead.
56:4856 minutes, 48 secondsClass of 2026, when you put on the bif focals of time,
56:5656 minutes, 56 secondsyou will see straight through the fog of confusion, the fear-mongering,
57:0457 minutes, 4 secondsand the anxietyprovoking chaos.
57:0857 minutes, 8 secondsThe world sometimes wants to shake us with its urgency.
57:1557 minutes, 15 secondsBut I want you to know that you can be steady, wise,
57:2157 minutes, 21 secondssober, and surefooted because you are better prepared
57:2857 minutes, 28 secondswhen you can see the truth and importance of that situation.
57:3557 minutes, 35 secondsClass of 2026, congratulations on your milestone achievement.
57:4357 minutes, 43 secondsWe are rooting for you. We are proud of you. Thank you.
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